Worry

I'm finding the mood to blog again！
COS I'M FEELING SO FLY LIKE A G6 ~

So been a very busy girl, band everyday
Nearly lost my faith in God
Watching glee episodes everyday
Dead, cos there is no stagetime thus I don't feel alive

I think I've been a random person talking bout stuff that us random and interesting. HAHA

BUT BEHIND ALL THISSSSS
I'm kinda worried bout lots of stuff

Yeah worried that I will not be able to play
Worried bout my lines
Worried bout my friendship
Worried that an earthquake may hit Taiwan
Worried that I get slashed
Worried
WORRIED
W.O.R.R.I.E.D

I think I'm someone that worries too much
Someone once said: worrying gives you more white hair on your head

I tried to stop worrying but it just hit me badly and make me worry so much... Maybe cos I lost faith in god thinking that he doesn't exist and me playing hero trying to solve my own worries but was buried badly?!? Hmmm maybe I haven't been praying,kinda being a bad catholic

Since glee episode 3 inspired me about this about religion it made me realize that it's your own choice to believe or not.
Should I continue believing?!?

PS: I LOVE PERRY THE PLATYPUS HAHA I WANT TO HAVE A PLATYPUS AS A PET!!



xoxo
V

Jealousy is like a knife that stabs your heart

Someone shoot me please u don't feel like blogging :/
Yeah this week sucked badly for me!!!
Getting jealous,pissed.....
GAH SUCKT TTM!!!!
I wanna jubeat I wanna jubeat!
I don't want to hurt myself so I guess I forget bout you for now

I WANNA BE STRONG! I WANNA HAVE A PAIR OF WINGS AND FLY LIKE A BIRD!

Yeah finally your bff talked to me not bad uh. But he still reminds me of you TOO MUCH!

My life sucks.

PS: listen to mariannas trench they have the best songs ever (except for the screamo parts)



xoxo
V

I miss you even though we met

It's only a few hours since we met but I miss you quite terribly now.

Today might be one of the best day ever.

During AYD during the prayer session We held hands and your hand was super warm which made me feel warm even in a place that is super cold. I guess you were having a fever alrdy :/

Rmb the retarded game?!?
Yes because of it you have to piggyback me. You were the one who signaled me to jump on you and you piggyback me!~ hmmmmmmmm. Hey I love piggybacks once again cos of you (;

Whatever I'm bragging here doesn't really make sense but falling in love with your best friend could send you such vibes.

Damn I'm drunk.





V

My heart skips a beat when I see you

Hmmm first things first. Do you believe in fate?!?

1. the ultimate agency that predetermines the course of events (often personified as a woman) Synonyms: Destiny Examples ▪we are helpless in the face of Destiny

I do believe in fate along with my 11:11 wishes and god's plan for me.

I don't know how to put things straight. I believe that fate can bond 2 ppl closer. I believe it's fate that I have met you.

But about falling in love with someone through fate?!?

Yeah that's what happened to me.
Me and him so many things in common we have the same thing happening to us. We have alot of mutual friends. We are just totally the same. We EVEN HAVE THE SAME FUTURE (tv yaw)

But I dunno whether this will last for eternity. And whether this will be my last forever and ever.

Because if anything bad happens, I think ....... ._.

So give up or continue????
(life is no nintendo game)

xoxo
V

So yeah results are out



I think I really killed myself
The first few papers came up
And a wave of emotion came.
But last few weren't that bad
>.<
but my core kinda sucked
Maths FAILED (_|_ you underline)
Chinese,geog and combined humans exactly the SAME
WTF
Okay lah English paper1,geog,bio,history
YEAH THESE ARE LIKE THE BEST PAPERS
xoxo
V

formspring.me

Ask me anything :D http://formspring.me/vanessaAong

a freedom like a child

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY !!!!
i swear i miss being a kid.
well everything's okay and i'm happy as a kid now
especially spamming ppl's fb with happy children's day wishes

WHY IS EVERYBODY CUTTING THEIR HAIR LAHHHHH.

i will pray to god that TOG will be okay, we can always prove ppl wrong

we gotta fight for this love

So studying with earnest and his friend, jon. HAHA BEST EVERRRRRRRRR.

LOL  paedophile alert.

ohmyohmy everybody is like talking about retaining.

the word 'retain' is getting way freaky. ALL WE GOTTA DO in order to prevent it is to act like nerds and study like some hardcores, don't know and stuffs ask and you will know it. JUST GOTTA BUCK UP AND PULL UP YOUR SOCKS AND SPRINT TO THE FINISH LINE !!~!

 

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i dun want my friends to retain maybe i should really teach them like some hardcore. i'm gonna try till i reallyreally can. practice makes perfect YAWWWWWW.

 

i studied and i'm like kinda resting.

 

GOD I PRAY EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY...

 

V

I'm different.

the last time i actually fell (and drop out) in love was in june. LIFE HAS CHANGED and i find myself different from what i was. STARTING ANEW is a difficult thing. no matter how difficult it is, i will still persevere.i regretted making those mistakes i regretted for being who i was before. I SWEAR my life has changed totally from the day i join TOG. being with them was the awesomest (Y). and i have just a little dirty secret to share, i kinda find someone in there super different treating him super different. however i'm gonna let it go. IF that love comes back. we are seriously too fated. my life's in a bliss now and i love it

xoxo
V

when you're sick

SO MY VOICE IS SCREWED.
(after all that hardcore drama well after all not that hardcore yet)

lesson learnt:
1 never flood/spam lozenges into your mouth just to save your voice (I got a damn bad stomach ache)

2 DRINK HONEY (save your voice instantly)
HEEHEE MY BESTIE SO CUTE thanks earnest :D

3 nvr sleep in aircon room when you're sick. ( AWWW I SLEPT)



OKAY I'M GONNAGONNA STUDY COS THIS IS TOO CHIO HAHA WTH AM I TALKING
BYE PPLLLLLLLLL

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I don't have to wish for 11:11 anymore

I don't have to wish for 11:11 anymore because I don't really keep track of 11:11 but however that minute itself I just kept thinking of _______ if its in the weekend he will no doubt turn around. OMG SO DAMN FATED but I can't confirm yet. this is GOD'S plan for me and I'm ready. ready for what he have prepared for me.

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HAHA I ♥ YOU EPICS

sorry if i wasn't bloging that often. my life is really way busy even during the holidays

HAHA I LOVE DANCE PARTY TTM CAN.

AND I GOT HOOKED ON jubeat (damn its like a drug)

and all that hardcore rehearsals just for yesterday's performance.

epic is gonna be a major part of my secondary school life.

i never knew i could dance till i met all these awesome ppl ;D

OHMYOHMY i miss TOG :(((

Hey meet my sister :DDDD


Holidays coming to an end :(
I'm still alive at 1.34 am.
Dance party is still on.
Ciao I gottaa sleep now cos movie tmrw

Let me repeat myself again: JUBEAT IS ADDICTIVE (Y)




xoxo

dance dance like this

WHATS WITH THIS GUYS WHO COMMENTED ON YOUR TAGBOARD. SPAMMERS MAN

okay like finally im blogging.
so many things actually happen.
weird stuff to be exact
LEARNING DANCE, AKIDO AND SO MANY OTHER THINGS OMG
LIFE IS SO COOOOOOLLLLLLL!

so hell yeah my holiday is like gone to partying. gahh i need to study. -,-
my mom still doesn't understand me. treats me like a five year old.
thats the reason why i just dun wanna go home.
without dad around life sucks
i envy ppl who can do whatever they what.
but the thing is because they have an incomplete family :/
but some kids with complete family still have the freedom.
THE WORLD IS UNFAIR.
FML

however i like my outside life better than my home life.
COS OUTSIDE WITH ALL THOSE AWESOME FRIENDS
my parents think i got into bad company, WHERE GOT?!?
i don't smoke and do all those illegal stuff...
HEY I'M A LAW ABIDING CITIZEN
i cant wait to be 16 right now. ALL THOSE FREEDOMS.

I WANNA GO LASALLE I WANNA GO LASALLE

sigh whatever.......... ...... ...... ....
life sucks just admit it.

BTW GUYS PLS GO FOR THIS:

yeah its like my church dance party and im like one of the planners !!!
September 11 2010, 7pm.

Dance Club @ Church of Christ The King.

$10 per person, buy 9+1 free.

Strictly for those 13-18 years of age.
HAHA STRICTLY NO ALCOHOL. HAHAHAHAHA
OMG PLS GOOOOOO. I <3 you guys if you all GOOOOOOOOO ...
call me at @92718612 if you wanna ask more questions


CIAO SEE YOU AT THE DANCE FLOOR

I MISS YOU PUNYANIT

:(


i never know till today actually how much a friend affected me, in a positive way. her name is punyanit. even though i only known her for two years, it seems like we known each other since forever. i wish i could spend more time with her, but it seems that its just too late. she left for canada today at 1.30PM. and she is still on the flight. watching her go in the departure hall really sends many ppl to tears. and i just get all over emotional whenever i hug her, knowing that this will be the last time i get to hug her and spending her last few minutes in singapore together. its like almost seeing someone on their death bed. seeing her shadow and listening to the words that she spoke to me on the phone, it can just send me to tears. all those crying in church for two days can see how much i will really miss her. practically the whole TOG was there for me. these are the friends that are true. i have to face the fact and accept it that she have to go. I WANT CHRISTMAS NOW AND FOREVER BECAUSE SHE PROMISE SHE WILL BE BACK. i really gonna miss her alot :(((((((



this guardian angel that God have sent me.



thanks earnest,justin,jared,kyra,joie,isabelle,mike,alex,brian and everyone else for cheering me up.



i gonna have to face this again. another friend leaving………..

Just a helping hand

Have you ever wanted to help someone but hesitated and just ignored it?

That is what happened to me on Friday. Talk about being a good christian

God was telling me something that day went I was out with the girls
He told me to stare at the blind woman
She was flipping the chair nervously trying to open it. She's a busker
I wanted to help her but I was so close, so close to helping her but I failed.

Instead I hesitated and just walked away, pretending I did not stare at her at all, totally
Leaving her alone trying to open the chair

Yet i made someone's day too
Yes the person was nurul
We surprised her with a nutella cake and we can see that she was really touched we even let her sing to her fav Korean songs with Vienna
GOSH I REALLY LOVE THOSE GIRLS ALOT!

Gotten inspiration from a stranger?
Yes I did after leaving the blind woman alone.
It was the kbox guy apparently he is a new worker.
He's really helpful and he made me feel guilty for not helping the blind woman
He was the guy who set up the cake and gave a big surprise.

See how little things like this could make someone's day.


xoxo

Ps: will be on hiatus cos I seriously need to study
Will try to be back soon, stay tune! :D

and daren Macbeth movie is porn! :P

CHANGE thats the thing we have been talking about

first things first to ask : are you resillient?

FYI:characterized or marked by resilience: as a : capable of withstanding shock without permanent deformation or rupture b : tending to recover from or adjust easily to misfortune or change

this was what eagan asked me.
to tell you the guys we apparently failed to make her step down.
but what mr yeo said was true.
i've come out up with a plan that should make it better.
but its kept secret

how resilient are you?
i remember mrs low asking this question.
to be frank i used to not be resilient at all.
once fallen , cannot bounce back.
but alot of things happen
it made me stronger,better and faster
i'm a much positive person now.

whatever happen just now it made me did alot of thinking.
do i myself have flaws that are really obvious.
everyone makes mistakes
cos nobody is perfect
all you need to do is to give them a second chance

i know that we have given alot of chances though
but i myself couldn't even take over the board if she have to step down
because as mr yeo say i could not communicate properly and that is the truth

just move on and go with the plan if she still do not want to change, then sayonara
be resilient don't get down because of these setback.
nothing is gonna stop us
and the next step will be a better one.
i swear to you.

fall the hard way and learn your lesson.

another chance. use it wisely. turn over a new leaf

Money makes people way greedy

"money money money in a rich man's world!"

Seriously can money fall like rain from the sky please????

I'm really fretting over money right now.

1) hokkaido band trip in nov
It's worth $2800 but mr B subsidized till $2060 (not much difference cos of the two :( )
And I just bloody hell called the edusave enquiry line and I spammed it so badly and my account only left with $55 _|_
I wanna wash cars now to minimize the fare that I have to pay by hard cash

2) Class tee
$17.50 !!!! My dads gonna kill me cos I have to buy so many shirts. I hope it's in the right size I dun wanna waste my money

3) _|_ Chinese o'level revision book

4) I owe Cheryl Kok and Lynne Ong money. If I hadn't lost my wallet then -.-

6) BUKIT TIMAH GEOG TRIP $8

5) actually I need money for everything

DAD PLEASE GIVE ME AN ATM CARD PRETTY PLEASE WITH A CHERRY ON TOP?
(gosh I sounded like a spoilt brat)

Seriously I'm like draining my dad's money from his bank account
Imagine $2060 on the cheque
Some pickpocket will just steal it from me.

sigh why can't the government top up edusave accounts when it's below 100 . Seriously man I have to stay with the 55 bucks till next year pathetic much. -.-
Budget school eating up all my edusave money. I could get a bursary but what for MY DAD OVERSHOT THE CRITERIA
his salary is like double the criteria

Damn it

My dad earns alot but he have like what four people to feed
I guess I'm seriously the most expensive child

I remember asking him whether I could go lasalle to take up theatre studies. However the school fee was $10,000 according to dani. AND HE SAID NO. he said no to my passion now I have to find an alternative way

Seriously why must my elusive finish at this point of time, see how troublesome it made my life like

I wanna be budget. Please support me.
xoxo

Shut the

Fag. There's so many test GG


xoxo

You and I collide

Have you ever heard your favorite song being played many times at the same time, SAME PLACE? ironic much though

My favorite song is 'collide' by howie day
I rmb I sang it in church camp infront of Aaron
Okay that's the past
I once told god 'whoever can play that song on guitar in front of me is really someone who really made my day (i don't get this part:/)
So ya it started on Friday when earnest started playing that song through his iPhone and he and Joel were singing it. And it sounded awesome. I was grateful to god because of this. It was the only best song out of the emo songs that was played
Then Saturday before TOG there was this guy who played that song in church. It made me really happy
After TOG they played the song again.

Just realized it IT ALL HAPPENED IN CHURCH
EITHER THROGH GUITAR OR PHONES
AND ALWAYS SANG BY GUYS IN MY CHURCH

AND ALL KNOW HOW TO PLAY GUITAR

Seriously this is a signal from God
And it's difficult for me to explain it.
Especially the words. 'you and I 'collide''
So cool (Y)

Yesterday was a great day though besides the band part
I can't perform for showcase cos of outdoor performance at macritchie _|_

And I think I can't perform for scc day
FML.

went home after TOG got scolded and went to brian's house to study
We did. And it was productive Alex could be a tuition teacher
Earnest gave up and said he wanted to be a priest cos they no need math. But in the end he changed his mind, cos priest could not get married MAJOR LOL

Then we watched rec2 PURE HORROR
it's all in SPANISH AND ONE GUY WAS SUPER VULGAR he kept saying fuck
Like every single line also have it
However I still don't know the F word in Spanish
I was scared at first but it wasn't scary though
Exorcism of Emily rose is way SCARY
it's all about mad zombies running around and getting head shot to get killed FUCKING FUNNY (Y)
Sadly I have to leave halfway so I didn't really know the story
I WANNA HAVE MORE OUTINGS LIKE THIS. but it will rise up my dads bp
Cos I could make him angry. When will be the right time dad???

My cute cousins are here. But I have to study _|_

Ps I have a tumblr :stuckinafairytale