Polaroid SPAMMMMMM!!

Heehee




I love you guys very muchhhh <3



EARNEST the hair messer



JUSTIN the saikang warrior



JOEL the Egyptian cat



JARED the pokemon



ALEX the tissue supplier



ILOVEYOUGUYS! HOWMANYTIMESMUSTISAY!!



Heehee meet my best babies of this holiday <3

Orientation prep

So after youth camp I had another camp : orientation prep.
Those 4 days were insane it's like a roller coaster that have many twists and turns and dropping at super fast speed? I think it's way worse than battlestar galactica or the mummy at USS!

It's started out bad .It was planning the first day was horrendous we started out reallyy very bad totally no direction at all.
But things became better after dinner at least we had smthg in mind.

Day 2 wasn't that good too after the programmers joined. It sort of
Pulled down our standard. Was made to speak infront of the whole lot bout my feelings on the day. That day wasn't that good for me too. My discipline com sort of have a cold war. Then it hit me that I haven't been caring bout them.

Day. 3 the GL's came. Thought that we would have done worse cos it's another group of ppl. However I was proved wrong.
They were hyper and were super attentive and they were really spontaneous and active. That's when things became better everything went according to plan
And the day ended on a high note. however the programmers said gave us negative feedback and all were directed at Eagan. That's when I saw the bond btw the oc's as we work out a solution

DAY4 was pretty awesome started off with registration I guess everything sorta went well really well. Oc's were practicing for our skit and by the look of it I guess it's gonna be a good one.

Had many impromptu games to bond the GL and programmers
And don't forget those DSLRs
Haha those cheering competition was awesome it got everyone hyped out.
Than opening was done in a breeze even the seniors said that we were one of the most efficient batch ever!!
The day ended with everyone thanking each other for their contribution to the orientation!
Few broke down cos it was seriously so touching!!
I never seen everyone so bonded before!!
So now we're gonna make thus orientation THE MOST AMAZING ONE OF ALL!!

xoxo
V

Youthcamp

Sorry guys I've been to busy to blog.
HAHA YOUTH CANP IS REALLY AWESOME IT'S LIKE GODDAMN LIFE CHANGING!
MOST OF THE AFFIRMATIONS WAS THAT I HYPE UP THE GROUP AND KEEP SMILING AND LAUGHING ALL THE TIME ( I didn't know I had that in me till joie Edward steph and andrew pointed out)
HAHA THANKS GUYS FOR MAKING ME KNOW BOUT MY INNER POTENTIAL HAHAHAHA
ANYWAY I REALLYREALLY LOVE MY GROUP : JOIE ANDREW CLARE BENJAMIN ANDREW STEPHANIE REGINALD LENNY (EDWARD AND VANESSA AND JUSTIN)
I THOUGHT MY GROUP WAS A LOSER GROUP AT FIRST BUT THEY PROVED ME WRONG WITH GOD's LOVE. BECAUSE OF THAT THEYY ARE REALY AWESOME FRIENDS WHOM I WON'T EVER FORGET!
and for those friends that I knew alrdy, I bonded closer to them really and the love btw us gets stronger. Earnest Alex dom belle shauna aless joie mike Justin Jared Joel ...... REALYREALLY LOVE THAT TIGHT BONDDDDD!
you guys are seriously awesome.
My faith has grown deeper and i see that I haven't lost faith in God since camp which is pretty awesome I don't have to go to the adoration room to thank him but I do it every single time and I don't take thing for granted anymore
Another thing that i realised is that I'm willing to share openly. IM NOT AFRAID BEING SO OPENAND I WAS ABLE TO DO THAT BECAUSE I'M TOUCHED BY THE SPIRIT.

It's reallyreallly a great experience I see how much I've changed thank you lord!

xoxo
V

CHANGE!

My hair.
From this!


To this!



Haha I really cut my hair! Woots! And I really love it! And life ain't
That bad!

I admit I've changed to be a better person!

I'll never be the same~

Okayokay tmrw kickstart the continuous camp routine see you soon! <3




xoxo
V

Sleepless nights, never ending chaos.

I have a problem.
I'm too uptight bout stuffs.
I worry too much.
I can't calm down.
I keep reflecting every second.
It kinda sucked cos I'm always in my own little world.
I seek for perfection every moment.

They were right I should loosen up.
Guess shooting zombies is not a bad choice.
I need chill.
I reallyreally need to calm down.
It's unhealthy if I just worry too much.
I sweat when it's cold, I tear when I'm supposed to be happy,
My heartbeats are irregular....


Sigh stop worrying everything will be fine. I hope you guys can actually tell me how to loosen up cos I really need to.

I can't calmdown especially when it comes to praying and sleeping. I JUST CAN'T.
do you get those kind of feeling when you are in a comfortable
And quiet environment where you are closing your eyes and was told to calm down but your brain is like in total chaos that you just could not concentrate?!?

I have that feeling every single time.
I can close my eyes but only fall asleep after 3 hours. And I automatically wake up early in the morning without an alarm clock.

Seriously, fuck insomnia.

Telling You

this is love
its written all over my face
its something id try describing
but its hard to say a thing

this is loveit seems like a world of your own
when you could feel the butterflies
fluttering theyre outgrown.


so when i see your face
it gets harder everytimeto let go of us.
do you recall when i would
tell you


i love us. i cant go. a day without
your sweet lovin
i cant hide. they all know. so lookout
my hearts runnin'
heyyou, i'm tickled up
and i know i
aint picture perfect...


this is real
hearts will start to colide
it feels like we're entwined by all our roots
to grow aligned
said i need you need you.
another way to say
i gotta have you have you
the sound of your voice
is echoing


whats sweeter than sweeter than sugar, love.
is the taste of us x3


i really like this song so go subscribe to her!!
♥

Tangled.

exchange was OK!
HAHA.
CIP yesterday was tiring 3 shifts!! AM I AWESOME OR WHAT.
watched rapunzel btw!! oops its tangled!!



HAHA i love rapunzel's hair! so long!!!
HAHA blondie!
and that guy flynn AKA  eugene (may be spelled wrongly)
LOOK THAT CUTE AND HOT LAH! HAHA!
the witch looks like dom's mom! LOL.

okay you guys should really watchhhh :)
worth the price ♥



Plot
An elderly woman named Gothel witnesses a single ray of sun hit the ground, creating a magical flower with the ability to keep herself young when she sings to it. Centuries later, the queen of a nearby kingdom falls ill while expecting a child. Her guards located the mysterious flower, hidden by Gothel, and bring it to the queen. The flower heals the queen and she gives birth to a girl named Rapunzel, who comes to inherit the flower's magic through her long golden hair. One night, Gothel kidnaps Rapunzel and isolates her in a tower as her own daughter, to continue to preserve her youth. However, every year on Rapunzel's birthday, the kingdom sends floating lanterns into the sky longing for their lost princess to return.
Eighteen years later, Rapunzel tells Gothel that she wishes to see these annual floating lights that appear on her birthday, but Gothel rejects her by telling Rapunzel that the world is a dangerous place. Meanwhile, the thief Flynn Rider and his twin thug accomplices heist the tiara of the missing princess from the castle. As they flee, Flynn abandons the twins, allowing the pursuing castle guards to capture them. During the fiasco, the lead guard's horse, Maximus, is separated from his rider and continues the search for Flynn on his own.
Flynn happens upon Rapunzel's tower to hide in, only to be held captive by Rapunzel and her pet chameleon, Pascal. Rapunzel bargains with Flynn that if he escorts her to the lights and back, she will return the tiara. Flynn agrees as Rapunzel is excited to be free, but Rapunzel is soon conflicted between the elation from the new experience and the guilt of disobedience. Later, Gothel returns to find Rapunzel gone, but finds the tiara hidden in a bag under the stairs.
The pair arrive at the Snuggly Duckling, a seedy pub filled with thugs. However, the thugs recognize Flynn from a wanted poster and plan to turn him in, but Rapunzel confronts the men stating that she needs Flynn to complete her dream of seeing the lights. The thugs decide to help her as they too have unfinished dreams. Gothel watches through a window, but before she can do anything, the royal guards enter and pursue Flynn and Rapunzel to a wooden dam where the two hide in a closed-off cave. Maximus causes the dam to break and the surrounding area and the cave begin to flood. Thinking that they will die, Flynn reveals to Rapunzel that his real name is actually Eugene Fitzherbert, and she explains that her hair glows when she sings. Realizing that it would light the cave, she sings and the cave is illuminated as they swim to a loosened clump of rocks and escape the cave. Meanwhile, Gothel finds the thieving twins and offers them something worth much more than the tiara.
That night, Rapunzel heals Flynn's hand, which was injured in their escape, with her hair, and explains that if her hair is cut, it loses its power and turns brown. As Flynn goes to collect firewood, Gothel appears and pleads with Rapunzel to return to the tower, but Rapunzel refuses as she now has a liking for Flynn. Gothel gives Rapunzel the tiara in the bag and says that Flynn is only interested in it and will leave Rapunzel after he gets it. The next morning, Maximus somehow finds the pair, but Rapunzel is able to bring Maximus to strike a truce with Flynn as the group arrives at the castle for the princess' birthday festival. That evening, Flynn rows Rapunzel out in a small dingy to the middle of an adjacent lake to gain a good view of the lantern release. Rapunzel gives Flynn the tiara saying that she now trusts him. Rapunzel and Flynn almost kiss but, Flynn sees the twins on a different shore and tells Rapunzel that he will be right back. Flynn apologizes to the twins and returns the tiara, but the twins want Rapunzel instead. Moments later, the twins tell Rapunzel that Flynn has abandoned her for the tiara, when in reality the twins have tied Flynn to a boat after knocking him unconscious. However, Gothel betrays them to look like she's rescuing Rapunzel.
Rapunzel returns to her tower room and notices that a flag she collected at the festival looks exactly like the paintings she made all over the tower's interior; the sunburst design is an early memory from her life in the kingdom. Rapunzel realizes that she is the lost princess and confronts Gothel. Meanwhile, Flynn is arrested and is sentenced to be hanged, but is instead rescued by Maximus and the thugs from the Snuggly Duckling. Flynn and Maximus rush to Rapunzel's tower and find Rapunzel held captive by Gothel. Gothel stabs Flynn and attempts to leave with Rapunzel, but Rapunzel continues to struggle and tells Gothel that as long as she lets her heal Flynn, she will go away with Gothel willingly. Since Flynn would rather die than have Rapunzel stay trapped with Gothel, Flynn cuts Rapunzel's hair when she tries to heal him, causing all of it to lose its power and turn brown. As a result, Gothel quickly ages and in her distress, falls from the tower, but disintegrates before reaching the ground. With his last breath, Flynn tells Rapunzel that his dream was her and dies in her arms. Heartbroken, her tears suddenly heal Flynn, returning him to life, overjoying Rapunzel, and leading her to kiss him. Later, Flynn returns Rapunzel to meet her parents and they eventually get married.

God's children!

now i know why i can choke my best friend cos i hug him in this manner.

♥

So yesterday was awesome!
breakfast with TOG at novena
HAHA as usual jared and kyra woke up late...
HAHA earnest texted asking where the hell am i.
HAHA we were both stuck at home cos of the rain -,-.
haha ended up going to novena despitev the rain.
texted them to text me when they reach.
earnest replied one second later found him in MRT station.
i asked where alex was and than alex just appeared LOL.
then yeah Earnest was stucjk in the toilet me and alex took like 15 mins to wait for him.
HAHA OVENBREAKKKK.
went to BK to slack.
earnest played risk 105 MEN CAMPING IN SIAM.
hardcore gamer, keep talking to himself! LOL
lucky my ipod never overheat uh. LOL.
HAHA finally jared and kyra came after 45 mins!! LOL.
went to mac and cheese.
they insisted that i don't payy.
yes earnest especially :<
yahyah we ended up being so fulll.
LOL. yes i ♥ the cushion.
saw some ice skating showcase.
theb guy fucking pro i swear he turn like don't know how many times
LOL. i wanna be a figure skater. soon uh after O's (;
went to MIC purchased sweets HAHA.
haha we are deprived children singing BINGO song LOL.
haha went to all those kid stores! lol
i want a princess bed.
we are really like small kid at united square manzxc.
had to go home so we said bye.
went home with kyra.
went and sleep overslept.
went to holy spirit confi with them + joel and ashley.
haha we were so lateeee.
stand nearly the whole mass.
HAHA CONGRATS TO JACLYN DOMINIQUE GABRIEL AMANDA TRUDY TIFFANY BRENDAN and manymany ppl ♥
haha the church was like chaos lah.
took loads of polaroid.
dominique said my group look like ah beng and lians with parangs. LOL
went to canteen with dom to find gab brendan jac.
called earnest to tell them to go down to the canteen cos i held gab hostage LOL.
went for dinner at pizza hut. alex zhao liao.
two large pizzas FTW.
and we're still hungry.
HAHA I NOOB AT MONOPOLY DEAL.
my cards were like damn uglyyyyyy :(

haha went to starbucks.

joel and kyra played monopoly deal

me and earnest slacking. and yes earnest's feet protected my phone from droping LOL. he claimed so!

ashley and jared having a walk.

than suddenly they came with a cake.

HAHA and i can't seem to blow out the candles. MEHHHHH :(

haha kyra insisted jared to cut the cake HAHA joke sia.

went to earnest's house.

played risk which was boring.

my mission sucked  conquer 18 territories with 2 men in each.

my rolling dice suck.

yeah everyone sucked at rolling dice except for earnest.

some HOMEBOUND THEORY i guess.

haha watched wrestling.

and yeah earnest's dog, princess damn naughty sia HAHAHA.♥

went home by cab and slept only at 1245AM. mehhhh

Me and Jaclyn (tsk chiobu)

Brendan and Gabriel

Me and dominique ♥

Awesome lians and bengs! ♥

Awesome ppl with gabriel
AYD ♥

15 candles

and yes i had an awesome birthday thanks to awesome ppl! ♥
haha it all started with the call at 12 AM (zaneta,jannah,sarah,danica,nurul and sherman)
you guys are just so funny HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ♥
chatted till 1:30 AM left me and sherman only HAHAHAHA!!
met sarah and darren at j8 HAHAHA random shit!
than met the rest of the boys at vland
HAHA OMG I FISHED (yeah darren gave me 40 tokens as b'day present!)
HAHA AND I CAUGHT A TURTLE!!
HAHAHA
saw charmaine! ♥
bus to ecp with them
hahaha the uncle damn cute uh.
HAHAHA
than was at BK at zan daren leroy and jannah came.
they surprised me HAHAHA.
embarassing muchhhhh..
haha i cut the cake until super unequal....
HAHAHA.
than bike for 3 hours with zan and jannah.
yeah the sky peeing like hell got all drenched 4 times....
HAHA WE EAT AEROPLANES.
haha jannah is the presidenttttt !
LOL LOL.
than went meet with the guys they prawned alot.
HAHA AND THEY FAIL TO START THE FIREEE!
hahaha.
BBQ-ed and was made to eat up the biggest prawn LOL LOL.
than took polaroid and zhao.
to church...
cried at first sighhhhh.
HAHA BUT THINGS WERE FINE AFTER THAT.
thanks alex for the tissue.
earnest for messing up my hair.
and kyra for the hug...
SIGHHHH.
meeting was epiccccc gahhhhh!
YEAH THEY ATE UP ALL MY mic! hahahaha
THEY ONLY FOUND OUT IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY TILL LIKE AFTER THE WHOLE THING!!
HAHA
yeah and all those hugs my hair got messed up by earnest again. >(
HAHAHA did loads of epic stuff and they say that they gonna celebrate tmrw ♥

HAHA  mac in cheese in the morning and holy spirit confi tmrw ! WHEE ~
yeah met a dead bird HAHAHAHA.
yeah met jude and kevin.
got double hug from kevin cos earnest insisted it was my birthday LOL
jared and kyra chasing the bus was epic
one of them step on a snail HAHA.
OMGGGGGG!
hahahahaha jude and jared's epic moments.
and hugssssssssssssssss ♥
went home and my grandparents called me !! ♥

ps: video of the day!! HAHAHAHA


goodnight ppl i needa sleep xxxx

is that look in your eyes.

So im really gonna talk about a very weird topic over here.
EYES.
yeah.
sooooo i have no idea to start this so it will sound like some random babling.

this line kept playing in my head:
"your eyes always seem like you're anticipating something and it's really cool"
yes, E said that.
haha

i have no idea why the line kept playing in my head??
really.

i don't blame E for whatever that has happened cos it wasnt his fault.

so yeah i thought they were the friends the friends that are true. maybe i'm wrong.
even one of them says :' you are in a long term contract with us'
hmmmmmm. i know they care.
but leaving me out in something, something involving death.
something involving one of my best friend's downfall.

yes his grandma died.

they told me she was hospitallised in tts with critical condition.
yes i visited her.
but i wasn't myself that day. was freaking jealous.

yeah i wanted to visit her the next day but yeah it was AYD.
but what they didn't tell me that his grandma passed away on this day.
they didn't.
but E was like having random breakdowns and stuffs and he grew very quiet,
very quiet.
i thought it was normal so i didn't care especially when he keep joking
and laughing.
i thought he was perfectly fine.

but i found out the next day before the clock strike 12AM.
J asked how the hell i'm going home
and i said that i follow them home or smthg.
and J was like we are going for E's grandma's wake.

seriously, a bile formed in my throat.
i held back my tears.
and told my dad.
sent my condolences to E.
and he said that he's fine and you know those normal stuffs with god bless you behind.
yeah. i don't blame E.

so the next day in mass.
met Ju there.
and i told him bout the wake thingy.
yes he is another super left out one.
at least i have the heart to update him.

than just yesterday Ju texted me saying:
hey why didn't i see you at the cremation today?
you would have guessed what i have felt.
they don't feel my existence at all.


i don't know whether i should ever trust them.
i wonder whether they still treat me as a part of them.


for those people who cared, thanks.
i hope there are many ppl like you.

GLEE - "Teenage Dream" Full Performance!